Planning for the Present
Tuesday, April 3, 2007 | 3:47:37 AM
So it's late now, and I'm tired, so why am I not asleep? I can't stop thinking about the future.
College is really close for me, and it will be a huge jump in a different direction. I'm excited for this new experience. I'm thinking about what I'll do, how I'll react, where I'll go, who I'll meet...
But there's one problem: That doesn't happen for another five months. That's a rather long time. I haven't even started AP exams yet. I just started spring break! What am I doing instead of relaxing for two weeks? Getting myself excited over something that I have to wait a few months for.
It's a good idea to plan ahead to make sure the future is good, but I'm not just planning ahead right now. I haven't even accepted admission yet and I'm already thinking about what sort of dorm I want to stay in. This has happened before: I plan way too far ahead, in a game, for example, and I end up stopping short, getting diverted from the original plan, or otherwise changing my mind. Either way I waste time with planning the way I do.
So what happens when I get close or past where I planned? I continue the process, planning ahead another time interval to make sure I succeed again. I never really enjoy the present as I should, never stopping to relax, or think about what I currently have (without thinking about what I could have...)
Don't focus too much on the future. Make sure to enjoy the present. After all, you never live in the future, and you always live right now.
YOU ARE SO WISE I WANT TO LIVE IN YOUR DORM WITH YOU YOU CAN PACK ME IN YOUR LUGGAGE AND WE COULD DISCUSS THE MEANING OF LIFE AND ALL THAT STUFF I LOVE YOU RYAN <3